not yet ready

I have shut myself in this stuffy little room because, I fear I am not yet ready for people ~ Slipped downstairs quietly - like floating and started to clean - others still snoring when a book caught my eye ~ Frozen still by words I stood my heart wrenched captive perhaps the "Book of…

Birthday post

I have been far too busy to keep up with an account of my life. I made it to NY on my motorcycle and am thoroughly convinced that I have a guardian angel. I got a flat tire during the second day. Not while I was going 85 down the highway but when I was…

Motorcycle trip day 1

Was technically yesterday. You can't really write while riding. Nor can you take pictures, which is sad. I went 409 miles and because of stops and gas it took 10 hours. I tell you honestly when the road came into view that my hotel was on I did a literal fist pump in the air.…

Charging. . . . .

Dragging his feet, my son approached my side, "Mom, I need to charge my batteries." "Oh?" "Do you know how I charge my batteries? I charge them with hugs."  Oh, sweet child, how pure can you be? Phone down.  Big boy up on my lap.  Skinny arms around my neck.  Me too...me too....it's just sometimes I…

The heart of the cloud

  It usually takes a few fights to get down to the real problem. Today the real problem emerged. To understand, I'll need to back up.  He has "this dream". He's "had this dream forever" of buying land with his brothers and getting to do whatever they want on it. Build an off grid cabin,…

what color is the grass over there really?

It's been a while. Things have been stable. I thought we'd reached a new level, some new relationship that worked for us. I have to expect fights though, I have to be okay that they happen-all couples fight, right? But do they all feel like this? Would I feel like this with anyone? He said…

the dynamics of time

There's not been much time. Not much to report out here in MONW. Life moves on slowly, quickly... The school year is quickly approaching, that long dreadful year of school; and  now summer can be seen on the horizon -but too far away yet to reach. Flowers were delivered from a father who tries to…

only questions

He says that I’m hanging on to things. I feel like the 50/50 split we had agreed on has been slipping for a number of weeks.  When he called this bull shit I brought up points to explain myself. Ergo I’m hanging on to things and not letting things go. *I've referenced this 50/50 split…

I forgot how much I liked

I forgot how much I liked Walking in the night Houses lit from underneath and within Instead from up above Branches and leaves litter my path From the storm that rolled through And rain drops hit my face  Pushed off the trees  By cold wind that drove from behind I forgot how much I like…