the ASD maze

I've been on the search for something.  I don't think I'll find it really.  I'm sure it's there, but it's unique-there's no singular rule, so I have to define it for myself. I don't like that. Over the last week or so my husband and I have followed this separation schedule.  We stay away from…

List: why my daughter is awesome

Reasons why my daughter is awesome: She thinks bugs are awesome. She includes others in her appreciation, getting kids and adults (that start off squirming in their seats ewwing at the thought) equally interested in tiny aspects of bugs that make them not just creepy crawly things with lots of legs but amazing creatures that care…

new laptop post

Well, here I am! Typing on my new laptop! I have a computer.  YAY! honestly, there's been too much going on over the last few days for my brain to write up a fun to read, quirky post. Here's the lowdown: I took my kids soft-trail bike riding.  It's like a scaled down version of…

A question for you:

I am a woman with Aspergers. So sometimes I don't get things. So...I'm asking. I know that relationships are not totally perfect and the idea that someone "accepts you for who you are" means that they will actually ask you to change certain things about you or what you do and that's okay.  So where…

scars dig deeper

I've been called a lot of things in my life. Manipulating  Selfish Stubborn  Snake in the grass Toxic Needy Emotional  Bitch Cunt Unrealistic  Lazy Messy There's more... I know I've been called positive things too. But they don't stick the same way.  The other thing is, all of these things I've been called-every single one…

dirt, music and the police

Note: found this unpublished. It's from the weekend. Today, mostly, was for me.  Crap and more crap aside. I was determined to make today mine.  I dug outside in the dirt. I dug out frustration, hatred, loneliness, despair. I dug it all out of the ground and planted beautiful creeping phlox in its place. I…

the separating

It's been a few days-I think. It's been a long time in my mind anyway. Too much to include all the details. I'll try to pick a few that I need to get off my heavy heart and a few that lift my heart just a little. Notsogreat Item 1: Technology. Apparently with this "separation" and…

sunshine to darkness

I can still feel the heat rising off of my skin.  I'm totally sunburned. Really, it's like a miracle that the sun shone all day today in MONW (Middle Of No Where). It's been raining and cloudy for weeks. Guess I'm caught up on my vitamin D, right? I finished my garden bed. I'm happy…

3:1

My glass is empty.  No, that's not a metaphor. I've run out of 7&7.... At least until I get up and get another. I watched my husband, large, probably 12 oz water glass, pour, pour, pour....the Seagrams. No room for the 7up in that glass. It's supposed to be a 3:1 ratio you jerk I…